why..

Why do I have this feeling..???

Why is it so hard to spill it, to explain it? Really, I don’t have any words to describe it

 Why is it always keep lingering in my thought

Why is it only I that always have this feeling? Is the other party not feels anything? For all this time, is that only me..??

Why do I let myself always struggling about this matter but never find the answer 

Why do i write about this..??hehe..boredom i guest ^__^

Here's to the kids

Here's to the kids,
who try their hardest to be good enough for everyone.
who spend hours scrolling through posts on tumblr just to find the right one to describe their mood.
who wait online for that one certain person to sign on, just to gather up the nerve to say hello.
who listen to the same song dozens of times because the lyrics mean a lot and with the words, a memory plays in their minds.
who deserve so much more than they get, and are willing to fight for it.
and whose wish upon a shooting star or 11:11
was wasted on someone who will never care

I really,really, really wanted to go back soooo badly!

Plan b kalo xdpt nk blk umh ingt nk g gmbak ke lepak2 kt sane smbil m'happykn diri..

Tp msti idea nk blk gmbak ni pn x kn mgembirekn ati mama n abah

So, rather than make my parent unhappy, terpakse la stay je kt kuantan ni n just bear with it till this weekend ended!
n hopefully jgk my dcision nk duk diam2 kt kuantan ni akn btahan at least till tmrrow evening.huhu

nak g jusco..nk bli novel..nk3....

ni yg xsuke nk rancang2 ni..msti  xjd last2 :(

wonder girl..

i want nobody, nobody but u..

did i..??hehe

the truth is i'm still wondering who that person might be..haha

luckily the urge of wanting someone whom u really love cume kadang2 je hadir..2 pn sbb bile dh xde ape nk di pk kn atau sekadar memenuhi hobi yg suke berangan bnde mengarot2 or bile topic ni diutarakan.hu3

dan kepada si dia yg aku sndiri pn xtahu siapa n di mana..hope 2 c u soon ^_^

Semoga kamu adalah seekor lebah yang sentiasa memuji keagungan Yang Maha Kuasa
memasuki taman karangan dengan sopan santunnya dan bertemu mawar berduri yang terjaga oleh tuannya..

kosong

suam2 kuku je hr prtame kt cni..ditambah plak dgn ujan yg x berenti dr pg ni..sgt la xtau nk buat ape..
tp ade beberape pkare yg buat aku gmbire

• 1stly sbb bjaye mmiliki hiking beg sndri..finally, ade jgk wishlist aku yg da tertunai..aku bkn la kipas-susah-mati utk g hiking or camping but just by owning it made me extremly happy.truje sgt2!haha..sgt2 berterime kaseh kt dill sbb ssh2 bli kn utk aku smpai kene dulukn dwet die dlu..nnti dpt pt aku byr eh dill...heh
• happy sbb cadar baru?haha..saje2 je..sbb suke tgk kale pepel die 2.n corak belang2.looks soooo comfy ;-)
• ade sbb len ke?xde pn..sbb nk mule sem baru.kene semangat sket!

azam saye utk sem ni...that standard cliches~

study rjn2, xmau stdy last minit, kurangkn shopping n men gem facebook,n be matured.xmau dh childish2 ni.. ^_^

busy mcm mesin basuh

da lame x menulis kt blog ni tbe2 rase nk menulis

after almost a month esok tamat la percutianku di rumah.huhu

mcm2 aku buat kt umh ni smpai xsdr mase blalu..cepatnye cuti kali ni habes.

aku semakin memahami prasaan suri2 rumah yg bt kije rumah je keje diorg.hr2 kene kemas umh, pastu pk nk msk ape tghri n mlm..phew,lame2 jd booooosan.

smpt jgk la mcube beberape masakan baru. antare nye sandwich, pizza n eskrem goreng.haha..bangge aku dpt buat even nmpk cm simple je.

 sandwich letak telur kt tgh.shedap! in order nk dpt kale roti 2 cmtu tpkse la msk lame2 smpai tlur kuning 2 jd masak. n free2 je aku buang part 2.hehe

 tringat zmn2 kt mtrik pj dlu bli eskrem grg kt pasa..

piza nyum3..

esok pagi2 dh nk kena pulang ke kuantan..stat new sem. i wonder what kind of sem i'll be facing, what kind of lec n subject..huhu..hopefully everything gonna be ok! after all, dh 3rd yr 2nd sem pn kn ;-)

fighting!!!

malu tapi mahu

pengalaman pertame jd usher utk VIP mase AGM khmis hr 2..malu nye!!

mcm lalang!

weekend ni btol2 xseperti dirancangkn..

hr isnin hr 2 dgn semangat nye aku bg name nak join kayak kt tasik bera

but as days passes, semangat nk berkayak semakin pudar..

hr isnin 2 sgt semangat.turun kayak bsame amalina dan aliaa..xhengat brape round tp nek kebas jgk la tgn ni menghayun paddle.

dh la pose tp oleh krane smngt yg melampau2 ku kuatkn jua diri ini.haha..

hr slase dh x trun sbb ingt nk sttle kn report iab yg xsudah2..

tp smpai senja pn x completely siap jgk.cume nmpk lbih kemas dan teratur..

hari rabu lg la..clz smpi 1.30, then 2.05pm bjalan laju2 ke lab.smpai agak lewat n kena kunci dr lua sbb mdm xkasi masuk

luckily aku dan dila ade alasan clz biostat so ktorg dpt masuk..ksian kt mmbe2 len yg xmsuk..kerane nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga.hmm...

ptg kul 5 ade selection utk cycling from gmbak to kuantan plak.hbs lab pkul 5, dgn rushing nye aku blari2 lg ke kom.sudahnye mase lari 2 mmg xlarat dah. dpt la nombo 1st dr blakang n thkns to pudin bg pnjm moto. siyesly xleh nak lari dh! sumtime i wonder why i keep on trying nak lari (cth nye mase jogathon) even i know that i really could't run..curious mybe..??

khmis 2 aku dh mule goyah.nak msuk kayak ke x..kaki da stat saket sbb lari 2.tgn pn saket sbb kayak..cmne nk kayak kt bere nnti..??larat ke..??tepon mak pn die kate xyah g sb die kate aku ni xkuat dr segi fizikal.huhu..

i guess u're right la mummy..

so finally, jumaat 2 aku decide nk withdraw.sorry sgt2 esp kpd fadilla n amalina.ye2 je kn aku jnji nk join korg kayak..

so i end up being here alone in my room je this weekend.betol2 dah btuka 360' plan aku mggu ni..

Allah knows..

When you feel all alone in this world
And there's nobody to count your tears
Just remember, no matter where you are
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you carrying a monster load
And you wonder how far you can go
With every step on that road that you take
Allah knows
Allah knows

CHORUS
No matter what, inside or out
There's one thing of which there's no doubt
Allah knows
Allah knows
And whatever lies in the heavens and the earth
Every star in this whole universe
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you find that special someone
Feel your whole life has barely begun
You can walk on the moon, shout it to everyone
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you gaze with love in your eyes
Catch a glimpse of paradise
And you see your child take the first breath of life
Allah knows
Allah knows

CHORUS

When you lose someone close to your heart
See your whole world fall apart
And you try to go on but it seems so hard
Allah knows
Allah knows

You see we all have a path to choose
Through the valleys and hills we go
With the ups and the downs, never fret never frown
Allah knows
Allah knows

CHORUS (x2)


BRIDGE:
Every grain of sand,
In every desert land, He knows.
Every shade of palm,
Every closed hand, He knows.
Every sparkling tear,
On every eyelash, He knows.
Every thought I have,
And every word I share, He knows.
Allah knows 

me n u ^_^

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

From a LittLe biT of eVeRyThiNg

i want my mommy..hihi

today demam+shesheme+saket tekak..jwb exam pn ciap bleh tdo2 lg sbb mate n kpale sgt berat..huhu

nak mak..dulu kecik2 msti mak msk kn air panas utk mndi..demam sket je pn msti kene suh mkn ubat n abah bwk jumpe doc..besh nye saat2 2..dijage dgn bek.huhu..

cici

dun feel like writing tp saje2 jgk nk write sumthin

suke3..!!

suke betol la men tuka2 layout ni..haha..

exam vs balik

ptg ni exam tp mind n soul dh lame smpai di rumah..naseb la exam last2 ni..mmg xtumpu sgt pn.
lg2 la exam eap.nk study mende nye..??hmm..alasan je 2 xnk study.pada hal bleh je prctice buat esei ke..


time sahur td mama call..die plak nk g blaja.psnan mama:"along gnti mama ye.." baik lah mak! bju raye pn mk xsmpt ciapkn sbb die sgt bz dgn esaimen die jgk..cian nye mama saye..pastu sy pn ckp,sttlekn dulu yg penting2.bju kami adk brdik xciap pn xpe.cewah!huhu..


hopefully ptg ni dipermudahkan jwb exam..n esok slmt pjlnnku pulang ke rumah..ameen ;-)

b.o.s.a.n

sbb ape bosan??sbb kena tgl sowg2 kt bilik..haha..rumet2 aku sume balik plak mggu ni..
tp duk sowg2 ni bkn bleh stdy pn..in fact,dr smlm ag x sntuh pn buku.sbb bile org x ramai tenet pn jd laju..bile tenet jadi laju aku pn dh x tgk buku.duk ngadap lappy dr pagi men fb ni ha..lepaskn gian nak men mw.now dh level 305.go don farah! ngee~


hr jumaat xde clz..g derma darah la plak.nsib bek kali ni lepas.hb ckup..berat pn cukup2.haha..pastu yeye je plan ng dila nak kua tgk movie.tp smpai ke petang x kua2 pn.hu3..nsib bek ade enun ag time 2.kalo x msti dh leh gile aku duk bilik sowg2.


mlm 2 chepah mntk bwk die g secret resepi.ngidam mkn spagheti..pastu chepah blnje kek chocolate indulgence.tq chepah!even due2 pn jnis x ingt jln,tp ktorg bjaye jgk pegi n balik uia dgn slamat.hehe..


kaki ku saket~
ni sume gare2 jogathon..xde kije btol g join.xpe2..at least ade jgk la aku exrcise.bak kate dak2 ni..ni peluh utk 2 sem akn dtg tros.haha..jogathon nye ade la dlm sejam lbeyh kot.2 pn ikot shortcut. tp saket kaki ni smpi 2 3 hari x ilang2 ag.2la..mls senam ag..


ptg ni tgk inception.yay!!semangat neh even cite 2 dh lame tayang kt cinema.showtime pn 1 je kul 7.20.tp wa xkesa..yg pnting dpt tgk..weehuuu!!

di kala xtaw nk post ape..~

Everytime I want to give up on him, there's always something inside telling me to just give it time.

I know you are doubting yourself at the moment. I know you feel unsure and scared. I wish there was a way to make you understand you’ll get through this. I know you will. I believe in you

21 guns

<1 of my fav songs~>


Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

gambate ne!

yosh!!

aku dan cutiku.hahaha

cuti dh nk hbs..sok da nk balik kuantan.uhuhu:((

tp ape je aku buat kt umh cuti lame2 ni?????me also dunno..taw2 je cuti da nk abesh.

plg besh duk umh ni sbb da pndai dwload cite sndri.bangge2 ;-)

sume ni thanks to sifu yg da aja n kasi link nk dwload ktne.time kaseh jiranku!

antare link2 tersebut ialah..

aku music hampa, dailydown portal. tp yg ni xpnh bjaye bkk.asal bkk je msti google chrome jd bengong.tros die tutup sume page aku.cess..

next is http://teamaryzs.com/ n lastly..http://www.azmovie.net/

dan x lupe kpd Syok.org

sgt tamak dwload cite byk2 n tataw bile nk hbs tgk.pape pn watchin movies all days tnpe buat ape2 sgt besh.yosh!!

everyday is a different day ;-)

everyday i learn a new thing only if i let n allow myself to feel n face it

no effort without errors and shortcomings

...............................

speechless+sdey+frust bile 1st time tgk result ni

ottoke..???

ptt recheck or redha n trime je..???

buntu2..

I Love You

I love you
You love me
We're a happy family
With a great big hug
and A kiss from me to you
Won't you say you love me too?
I love you
You love me
We're best friends Like friends should be
With a great big hug
And a kiss from me to you
Won't you say you love me too?

??????????

does it really happen like this..???
hoho..do spermssss talk lyke this???
dun think so c0z they all lyke runnin 100m++
just to get int0 a ‘ball’…

Et Tu Parasite (Ectoparasite and You)

Listen well

My wards

To you I plea

My talk don't flee

I tell no lies

Nor use my might

Won't bug you

Won't tick you off

My humble need

Pay good heed

Your ectoderm they need

Your neuron I plead

Dr. Pakeer Oothuman

(A plea to students to pay attention to a lecture on Ectoparasites)

MY WISHLIST

my wishlist yg skang ni cume akn mjadi wish je..

tatau la bile bleh grant my wish ni..

sumone plish~

sony experia x10 idaman hati..brangan nk ade touch screen phone..somehow, im gonna get it one day. b'usehe..!!

utk org2 yg gile lense..tp xde sgt pn xpe sbb aku suke bgamba, bkn suke amek gmba pn! haha..

wish i could have 1....

external hard disk...hehe (xde kena mngena pn dgn brand2 kt atas ni)

dance mat (^___^)

so dat nnti cuti 3 bln kt umh bleyh r prctice hari2 men ng ijah n ain. weewee..:-)

Boonga art shoes yg chantek2..!!nk bli....

tbe2 rase nk ade 1 beg hiking..

cool gile tgk org bawak!!

actually ni gmbo je..

xkesa la wrne or brand ape.bkn aku tau pown..

beg hiking yg soooo cool!!

plan nk g lngkawi tp tatau la bile..

nk naek..xpnh naek pn..

xdpt MAS, air asia pn jd la..

nk jgk!huhu..

2 psl la saye nk g lngkawi..bleh naek kpl trbang.wink!wink! ;-)

everytime is my first time

my life kt kuantan yg oweysh ade aktiviti even in the wekeend.

actually weekend la ade aktiviti coz weekdays ade clz.hehe..

pape pn, all this give me such a sweet memory to be remembered n byk yg aku blaja from all that happen in my life recently.hurm,ssungguhnye pngalaman itu mngajarku erti khidupan n supaye aku mjadi seorg yg lbeyh responsible toward myself and people around me n mjadi seorg yg lbeyh matang.hihi..;-)

tibe2 aku disuruh jadi judges utk program sister nite kt mahallah ktorg..hehe..tibai je la

program pertama yg aku kna hnddle. tmpat yg dituju : taman tamadun islam n muzium terengganu.

even jd assistant n xrmi pn komiti kami,tp we're still de best! (bak kate bos aku 2 la..)

pengalaman pertama jgk sembelih ayam.slame ni reti mkn je..xpn bli aym kt pasa. not once in my life kena pegang n sembelih aym sndri..hehe..besh3!

ni plak aktiviti ktorg sndri..mandi mande di air terjun panching.

1st time jgk neh!hehe..

bile da jmpe air mmg x ingt ape dh.tau nk trjun je..sonok sgt!

tibe2 je..

tibe2 je rase nk menulis
tp no idea pn nk tulis ape.hurm..
busan gile ni.mate asek ngadap notebook tp kt tgn pgang note CB.cmne nk stdy nye kalo dh 1 ag tgn ni asek petik2 keyboard.haha..
aku mmg xleh stdy dpn lptop.cmni la jadi nye nnti (byk kali dh tp buat jgk).hehe..

rase nye dlm 2 or 3 mggu lg da final exam kot.(another things about me is i sometimes i careless about certain things like exam.hehe)
tp byk je rase x cover lg.aim aku sbnrnye at least nk cover sume topic b4 final exam.
tp...skang otw nk hbs kn CB. parasites x ag esp entomology.smpat ke nk ingt sume name insect plak ni..???helminths pn baru ingt 5-6 name je baru.huhu..

microb plak..bace je la slides 2.aku pn penin sbb xtau ape je prof aja sbb aku tgk die sndri pn cm penin2 je.tah ingt ke x die aja ape.he..QA plak xde notes.prof pn x upload ag kt e-learning.tp nk kuiz nnti 15hb..1 ape pn x bace ag..

last but not least is rkud.pekejadah tah aku pn xtau..asal clz rkud je da jadi clz makan2 utk aku, nani, dila, chepah ng hikmah. b4 clz msti bli pisang goreng,kopok leko ng air.hehe..nseb bek x lost sgt even sbjek ni sgt la ber philosophy.

ape2 pn hopefully dis sem pny result nnti still bleh mntain. im struggling 2 maintain my carry mark.doesnt matter la kalo tpkse tiru pn mase kuiz..its not like im the only one doing the cheating.ramai lg kot.ciap tgk buku lg.dulu aku xreti nk bust cmtu.ade 1 prasaan takot+besalah yg mhalang aku nk buat.but now, just ignore it!hehe..xkuiz lg tp da ade niat cmtu.hhehe..xbek btol kn ;-)

xla,tp da sume org pn buat.unfair btol kn utk org2 yg x tiru ni..dats y la mybe aku pn last2 buat jgk.at least aku da bleh topup mark aku sbb final nnti sape la yg tau..ape2 pn,tawakkal kpd Allah.aku akn cube buat yg terbaik n smoga nnti mase exam akn dipermudahkn oleh Allah.InsyaAllah...